Bottomed out!

Well today was my first nadir visit.  In cancer treatment, nadir commonly refers to the lowest point that an individual's blood cell count will reach as a side effect of chemotherapy.  Well according to my blood work the Dr.'s say I have "bottomed out". My counts are really low which means I am extremely susceptible to any type of infection.  An example is if you are at 4.0 you are considered low and I am at 1.8. Another one of my numbers is if you are at 2.0 you are low and I am at 0.2.  I try to look on the bright side and think  I could be lower I could be 0.1.  It is crazy to me because my insides are not matching my outsides.  I feel the best I have in awhile as far as nauseousness and pain, yet I am at my lowest point as far as my insides are concerned.  Crazy!

So what does all of this mean?  I should avoid people and take tons of extra precautions as far as hugging people or having them touch me.  I think this is going to the hardest part for me.  I am a hugger!  So I guess you all will have to help me and not hug me when you see me.  :(   I am going to hate that!

I do recognize all of the prayers being sent my way.  My family, everyone of them all three girls and Mark, have been or currently are sick yet I am staying relatively healthy. I see it as a small miracle.  I don't care what anyone says about staying away from them.  At the end of the day I am their mom and who do all of us want when we are sick?  Yes, our moms!  So I try to balance out taking care of them and staying healthy. It is tricky but I am managing. I have great people around me who are trying to help and I appreciate all that they are doing!  Thanks to all of you for loving us and being there for us.  We will forever be grateful!